Life as it goes

I cannot fire guns in my dreams. I just never could. The trigger would always be stuck, and I will have to pull it realy hard, really really hard to fire the gun. It is impractical, and I always get swamped by enemies in dreams because of this. It will be very interesting to know why I have this issue in my dreams. I am planning to go to a shooting range to fire guns for the first time in my life. I wonder if that would solve this issue in my dreams, it will be of the utmost interest to me if it does.

I have become a very negative person, and I do not even know why. Sometimes I think it is because my future is uncertain. When I used to be working back home, I did not worry about anything. I was the most chill person you would ever meet. But right now, I am constantly worried about something.